balancing act

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This whole parenting|career thing is tricky. It's constantly a work in progress to make sure there is a balance in it all. 

Last night I quit my job. SCARY. I quit my job.

 I worked for a great company. I worked full time from home. I started working here when Nash was about three months. At that point, I was able to work with him around- playing under his mat, in his swing, in my arms, heck sometimes even on my boob. It worked. As he got a bit older, my mom (the savior I told you about) would come up to our house and scoop up our sweet little man and take him out on their own adventures. This gave me ample time to make calls and speak with clients. I pretty much rocked at it. 

Things are different now. We are a family of four. With Jayne getting older, I am starting to need help with her. I cannot work when she is awake. I want to play, laugh, cuddle and just be with her. I can't pay someone to come watch her. I just won't do it. It doesn't work financially, as I would be literally only be working to have someone else watch my babies. Most of all, it's not what I know in my heart I want to be doing. Babies are only babies for a short time. 

As moms, we rarely stop and do things for ourselves. We are so consumed with making others happy, and helping others first, that sometimes we forget that we need to take care of ourselves too. I know nothing is forever. I will not be at home with them forever. I know that I want a career. But right now my calling is with my babes. 

So I did it. I made a choice that I know is best for our family. I'm not sure how this whole "stay at home mom" thing works. But I'm going to find out. 

Cheers to doing something for me!